So today I am grateful for modesty and having a boy.  Its so much easier to keep a boy modest.  Today I went to Lava Hot Springs in Idaho.  All I could do was see bikni, after bikni.  The worst was that some women were wearing them with so much fat hanging out that it was just sick to look at.  Also I saw some young girls there with CTR rings on and with nothing covering them.  I just think do their parents not know what they are waering or just don't care?  Maybe I am just jealous cause I am not a size 4.  WHATEVER.

I am grateful my mother taught me to value my body and to dress modestly.  It is just so degrading to see young girl with just nothing covered up.  I really think that self respect starts with your views of yourself and what you show to others.  If I ever have a girl to raise you will be sure that modesty will begin with me.  I will show her the right way to respect her body and I will be aware of what she is putting on out in public.

Yet, I only have a little boy and he will be taught to dress modestly and to expect the women in his life to also.  I will teach him to look for a woman who repects her body and doesn't treat it like its a peice of meat to be sold in public.  He will also be taught to respect women, their bodies, and the way they dress.  It starts at home in what we teach our children.  They have a hard enough time in life why make it more confusing for them.

My focus got lost

So when I started this blog it was going to be this place that I could come and share my postive thoughts of the day.  It seems that is how it got started but here lately I haven't counted any of my blessings on here, much lately.  So I am going to try to do this once more. To stay positive and grateful about the things in my life.  So today I want to say that I am grateful for my parents.  My mother has a loving heart that truly only wants me to be happy. She worries about me so much and even though at times that is hard to take it, it all comes from love.  I know that she is a very strong person who I can learn from.  Her heart is always in the right place even when it doesn't work out the right way.

My father is so often the man I turn to, to settle me down.  To help me think things through and be able to process and listen better.  He just seems to get me and understand who I am.  He even allows me to be me and I never feel like I have to change for him to be pleased with me.  He is also a very wonderful grandfather to my son.  My son loves his pappa sooooooo much.  I don't know how I could of gotten through the loss of Dayna without my dad or either parent really.  He often has been my rock when I have needed something to stand on.

I am so blessed and loved by my heavenly parents also.  How blessed I am to know that God lives.  That I will be allowed to be with him once more.  To know that each trial and struggle I have are only for my good. If I only will allow myself to learn and grow from each of them.  So often I am weak and struggle.  I get lost in the sea of pain, loneliness, and my trials.  Yet, when I listen and obey so many great and wonderful blessing come into my life.  Thank you God for loving me enough that you allow me to have trails and struggles.  I only pray that in the end I prove myself worthy to be with you once more.

Night out at the Flash game :)

Today has been a day of thought and ponder.  I had the wonderful chance to talk with my bishop today.  He is such a amazing man who listens and gives wonderful advice.  His words of comfort always are just what I need to hear. I am blessed to have this wonderful man be my bishop.  My other thoughts are about trials, struggles, faith, endurance, and often just listening to the lord speak to me.  I don't have all the answers to the questions in my life but I know I can find them and that God is the one who gives them unto me.  Sometimes the answer is "not now little one but have faith all is well" and I am watching over you".  I am learning that for me I often want it right now and not have to wait. So what does the Lord do?  He gives me a chance in life where the thing I must do is be patient and wait on his time.  So many times its not that it won't be its just not to be right now.  God loves me and I know he blesses me.  I also know that sometimes you can make choices and you have to deal with the stress and consequences of those choices and that they sometimes make what you want harder to receive.

I have wonderful friends and family in my life.  Each person brings wonderful blessings into my life.  God has blessed me lately with having a friend from the past who currently is a blessing my life and through this friendship I am learning, growing, and being tested.  Yet, this persons friendship has brought me so much joy and peace in my life.  I have also been blessed with more friends and people in our lives because of one person.  Those close to me say they see such positive changes in me. They see me growing and developing into such a strong and better person.  So to this one friend I can never tell you thank you enough for being the person who brings out better things in who I am and helping me to become such a better and stronger person. Thank you, you might think you don't bring me happiness but in truth you bring more to my life than you can ever know.

All I have is gratitude to my Savior for blessing me, changeling me, and being my Savior.  He's love for me is so amazing.  His atonement is the greatest blessing he has ever given me.  I know that my Savior lives and loves me.  I do not doubt this one bit. I wish for all my friends is that they can have the strength they need to make it through their trials and to be able to know what I know to be true in my heart. Love you all.

Today

I have been thinking a lot lately. I keep thinking I know how things are going to turnout and that I can't be surprised by anything new. Yet I am still shocked a bit when life doesn't go the way I have envisioned it to be going. Each day brings new trials for me to work on. New ways for me to perfect my imperfections that I seem to have, so many of. I am grateful for the chance to improve who I am. I know that God loves me and when I learn to let go and let him take charge amazing things begin to happen. He has such a wonderful ability to do things that I just can't see happening any other way. He never leaves me alone and is always there when I turn to him to bless me and tell me "all is well just trust me". Its the trusting part that is hard for me so many times. I seem to believe that I know more than he does. Then he finds some way to humble me and I remember that only with him are all things possible.

This week has been a hard one. I have been a single mother for 3 years now. I lost Dayna 3 years ago this week. I miss him so often. Knowing he is watching over us all the time but still wishing he could be here in person. Yet, I have a new chance at love and I am excited to get that chance and see where it will go. Its been a while since I felt I mattered to someone. Since I have had someone worry about me and what I think. I know that Dayna is pleased with where my life is going right now. I know God is pleased with it also. He still tests me and give me great ways in which to learn and grow. I am grateful for these trials and who they are helping me to become. Thank you to all those who love me and are apart of Dallin's and my life. I can not thank you enough for all you do for us. Love you all :)