Mind heaven help me

Alright all I can say is that I REALLY miss Dayna.  I just want to have him near me once more and yet he can't be.  My life in part, and don't get me wrong here I LOVE my life.  It is just that a huge part of the meaning behind it is gone.  I keep living, going, and finding joy with Dayna but it so not complete.  I know part of me is missing.  It is true that grief is hard and we each take our own path in it.  I just miss my boo.  I miss him SO much that my heart aches for him.  I know his family didn't think I really loved him, or was worthy of him.  The thing is that isn't even true or even close to the truth.  I LOVE AND MISS him so much.   The ache my heart has for my missing piece hurts.  It is like I don't care about things that I use to.  I did things because of him, for him.  Now I do them for Dallin but that is not the same.  I just keep pushing ahead but I don't want to anymore.  I am SO ready for Christ to come once more and to be with Dayna for forever.  I am hurting tonight just like so many other days of my life since he passed away.