As I sit wondering if I am going down the right path in my life. I wonder, what next? I could stay where I am at but that doesn't feel right. I want to move closer to family but moving might mean losing my student loan repayment help. $20,000 a year of loan repayment on a single parents income is a huge amount.
The problem is my job isn't taking care of me fully. My medical insurance claims have not been paid in 2 years. There is no plan to get them paid anytime soon, which means I need to get a lawyer. This adds to my list of things to do and burdens. Should I just give up and walk away? I am the only one paying into my 401K. I have no sick leave, no dental insurance, and my medical claims is a HUGE issue. My son has ADHD and a heart condition which means he NEEDS the medical insurance. I have type 1 diabetes so I NEED the medical insurance. It's not getting paid is affecting my credit. I can't keep up with the claims to keep them out of collections. My max out of pocket is $2,000 but my not paid is over $100,000. AUGH I am so frustrated and I just don't know what I want to do or what is right to do.
I am praying but truth is I don't know what I should be praying for. I can't pin point what I what or want I truly need because I feel like I need all of the following. A new job, medical getting paid, a man in my life, a new start, moving. There is so much, that I can't figure things out.
I believe stress is what I walk around with each day. It is something that I get used to but maybe that isn't what is best for me. I am trying, reading scriptures daily, family prayers, personal prayers (I can do better with this one), going to church, paying tithing, and fast offerings. Is that enough?
Recently I have been thinking what do I need answered this general conference. What is it that I am needing that the Lord can guide me with this conference. What do I need to be praying on that I need to be addressed in general conference.
What I am scared about?........
The problem is my job isn't taking care of me fully. My medical insurance claims have not been paid in 2 years. There is no plan to get them paid anytime soon, which means I need to get a lawyer. This adds to my list of things to do and burdens. Should I just give up and walk away? I am the only one paying into my 401K. I have no sick leave, no dental insurance, and my medical claims is a HUGE issue. My son has ADHD and a heart condition which means he NEEDS the medical insurance. I have type 1 diabetes so I NEED the medical insurance. It's not getting paid is affecting my credit. I can't keep up with the claims to keep them out of collections. My max out of pocket is $2,000 but my not paid is over $100,000. AUGH I am so frustrated and I just don't know what I want to do or what is right to do.
I am praying but truth is I don't know what I should be praying for. I can't pin point what I what or want I truly need because I feel like I need all of the following. A new job, medical getting paid, a man in my life, a new start, moving. There is so much, that I can't figure things out.
I believe stress is what I walk around with each day. It is something that I get used to but maybe that isn't what is best for me. I am trying, reading scriptures daily, family prayers, personal prayers (I can do better with this one), going to church, paying tithing, and fast offerings. Is that enough?
Recently I have been thinking what do I need answered this general conference. What is it that I am needing that the Lord can guide me with this conference. What do I need to be praying on that I need to be addressed in general conference.
What I am scared about?........
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